Chapter 9-The Righteous Judge appears
Jeremiah 9:24
But let him that glorieth, glory in this,
That he understands and knows me,
That I am The Lord which exercises loving kindness,
Judgment and righteousness, in the earth,
For in these things I delight saith The Lord.
I was beginning to grow spiritually amidst all this turmoil going on around me. I accepted them as my trials and tribulations and was depending on God to help me. I didn’t expect any of the trials to come to an end, so I accepted them as my norm and continued to live in expectancy as the blueprint for my house expansion had been approved. The next step was to get an estimate done and submit an application for the amount of money I would need to get my loan approved. The Mortgage for the house was on my name, and since I was having some much opposition from my husband I didn’t let him know how much money I was planning to borrow to do the additions to the house. With tax returns the previous year, I had already started breaking the dividing wall in the kitchen for the extension. I remember my husband using a sledge hammer to actually break the wall which was constructed with steel in it, and as the wall crumbled, we would pick up bucketful of broken mortar mixed with steel and dump it outside the house. I had another dream that a chicken had the stopper for my sink in its mouth, and I was running behind it to get my stopper out of its mouth, but I couldn’t catch the chicken. However the chicken got tired running and jumped in a box and it changed color. At the time, I didn’t know what that dream meant, but I wondered about it.
My husband knew that I had applied for the loan, and had told me that when I got the money, we would put our heads together to spend the money. I never really gave him an answer because somehow I didn’t trust him. I was still trying to make my marriage work, and battling with the understanding of the Scripture form Ephesians 5:22 Wives submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord. One day I decided to show him all the loan documents and the actual amount of money I was expecting, to do extensions to the house. I remember arriving home, and taking the documents out of the place I had hidden them, and placing them on the table. However, just as I was about to open up the paperwork, he got a phone call that his mother had been admitted to the hospital. He rushed out of the house and I thoughtfully put my paperwork in the secret hiding place. In some uncanny way, my plan was interrupted and I thought about that and decided that I would not let him know how much money I was getting and certainly didn’t plan for us to put our heads together to spend it.
I don’t recall how long his mother was in the hospital, but the inevitable happened as one day he came home with the news that his mother had passed away. Then in a fit of rage, he hurled this accusation at me, “You killed my mother!” I was so flabbergasted I didn’t know what to say. I made no defense, because the accusation was so lubricious. I didn’t know how to go about killing anyone. As I recalled I was the one who had the dream about this woman in our apartment years ago. He had a dream that a woman had cast a spell on my house and when it began to crumble I came out reading the Bible and the wall supernatural went back in place. I was the one who had experience sores on my hands and feet. I was busy trying to ward off the evil entity that had been attempting to destroy my life because Almighty God the righteous judge hates evil. I realized then that Almighty God had shown me through the dream about his mother in the gas station and the chicken got tired and jumped into the box which was a coffin.
I felt relieved because I had been so naive concerning evil things that people do, but my Heavenly Father taught me over a period of years about evil in the world. I am so glad that I had learnt Psalm 91:1 He that dwells in the secret place of The Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I can see how The Sovereign hand of God was protecting me from evil forces surrounding me. Shortly after his mother’s death, my husband went to her house and took the dining room furniture and brought it to our house, however we were not allowed to sit at the table. We never had another conversation about my killing his mother and I wondered about that false accusation, but kept silent about it.