Triumph over Trauma

This book is about the pain, hurt, discouragement, disappointments, rejection emotional, and physical scars, self-esteem, and worthlessness which pertained to my personal life, before I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior in 2005.The title of the book was God given, while living in Greenwood South Carolina in the latter part of 2007.The Lord pressed it upon my heart to write about the trauma I experienced as a child, the toil it took on me from being victimized sexually by a close relative, ganged raped by his friends taken advantage of by others, while trying to find safety from the hands of the perpetrator and the devastating effect it had on me down through the years. I ask the Lord what shall the title be called, and His response was, Triumph over Trauma. When the Lord gave me this assignment, at first I felt He had chosen the wrong person. Before I started writing, I can honestly say that `I knew nothing about proper grammar, punitions or anything else that had to do with writing an essay, more less a book. Because of the trauma I had suffered as a child, I could not focus in school, I had difficulties in communicating with my peers, and my highest level of education was the eighth grade, until I received my GED June 1994 at the age of 31. Curious about why the Lord gave me this title, and the meaning behind it, I then went before God again in prayer asking, why He wanted it to be titled this particular name, and I declare, I heard the voice of the Lord God say,'' because I the Lord God'' have caused you to Triumph over all the Trauma which you have suffered from the age of 3 until the age of 44. From that day, I understood that my story was not only going to impact the lives of people who were not in the Lord, but, it was going to help the people of God be able to understand how many of them may be still dealing with some form of trauma, struggling with being delivered from different types of demonic spirits, harboring unforgiveness, denying what took place, and refusing to accept the responsibility for our future, by releasing those whom we may still be holding hostage. Once again' I am truly thankful for the opportunity God has granted me, to be able to write about my childhood life, the trauma I endured down through the years, which made a tremendous impact on my life in so ways. Although this may be an extremely difficult topic for some to talk about because of bad memories which could be very painful to some, I can honestly say that, I understand. Being a victim of sexual molestation, rape, physical and emotional abuse, battered wife, among many other things, it was very unpleasant for me also. However, with the help of professional counselling, psychiatric care and prescribe medicine, I was able to open up, admit what had happened, where it happened, how long it happened, and who the perpetrators were. To me, this was the most humiliating thing to do, however, I got through it. I had to be totally honest, even when I knew how it would make me feel, which was filthy, undesirable, discussing, how people would look at me, what was in their minds, and would my telling cause more damage than good. There were other things that I had to take into consideration also, which were my five children, other family members, and friends, and the affect it could possibly have on all of them. However, after careful consideration and taking everything into account, I made the decision to come forth and to receive the necessary help needed in order for me to receive healing mentally, and emotionally. Therefore, it is my sincere prayer that, whoever reads this book, male or female will also understand that, if they have or still do suffer from childhood trauma, whatever form it may have been, you too can be made whole in every area of your life. I also hope that this book will enlighten people that they may know and recognize the signs of sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional disturbed signs, and mental illness. I feel with all my heart that' I have been given one of the greatest assignments in the world, by my Lord and Savior, Jesus the Christ, and that is to help set the captives free. With that being said, as we take a close look at families, communities, and societies as a whole, there are millions of people who has never spent one minute in a physical prison, however they are being held as captured prisoners by demonic spirits. Likewise, with those who suffer from Post-Traumatic Stress(PTS), which is really pre-signs of a mental breakdown from and individuals mental recall of traumatic events they have witness ,or what they have experienced personally. Either way, people are hurting, suffering, and being tormented by something they haven't got a clue as to what it is. Therefore, millions around the world seek to find some form of relief in illicit drugs, alcohol, perverted sex with one or more persons, and if not any of these, they are giving up on life and committing suicide, because whatever their bad experience was, Satan has fooled them to think that there is no hope, no one would understand, or that no one else has been through what they have been through. I believe with everything in me that, in order to help bring healing in the lives others, we must be totally honest and admit that, some of us were victimized by a close relative, a friend of the family, a clergy, or someone who we respected as a mother or father figure, and we also must admit that, a lot of what is happening in our societies today, is because at one time or another, the very people who are victimizing innocent people, were innocent themselves. However,' due to the fear of being stigmatized by family members, peers, as well as society, most individuals do not seek professional help, such as counseling or phyciratic help. Therefore `we look for other ways in order to numb the pain, and the traumatizing memories of our past. I sincerely pray that' as God allow me to pour my soul out in the volume of this book that, `those who read it, their lives would change in ways unimaginable. I believe that God gave me this assignment for the sole purpose of helping others to understand that `inner healing, inner peace, peace with others, real freedom, true love, and the ability to forgive is available, however a person can only experience the above mentioned, by freely offering forgiveness to others.