My Journey to Love: A Lesbian Romance Novel

Excerpt of Chapter 18--'A Journey of Love" by CJ MANN As the weeks rolled by I actually developed a nice, friendly rapport with Nikki, but I kept it light so I didn't get too attached to her because I still couldn't deny my strong attractions towards her. I just channeled all those feelings into her class. But I have to say, that's the one thing about attraction--whether it's considered wrong or right, sinful or holy it's just something you cannot deny no matter how hard you try. You may be able to control it but you can't change or deny it. Then, out of nowhere, I had gotten a very unexpected surprise from Nikki after class. When I reached out my hand to give her a quick goodbye handshake she suddenly pulls me in close to her and gives me the deepest, sweetest goodbye kiss with her incredibly beautiful lips. Wooooh! She actually looked deep into my eyes and really kissed me-- on the lips! Oh boy, I was really taken aback and pleasantly surprised by her ultra-friendly gesture. I mean, I still didn't know her all that well for that kind of a goodbye kiss! However innocent and friendly that kiss may have been to her, it soon turned out to be something much bigger for me. It happened so darn fast I wondered if it was all just an amazing dream. Whatever it was it surely ignited a fire inside of me that I hadn't felt in a very, very long time! I swear, it was like all my amorous emotions I'd suppressed for her all this time were immediately brought to the surface and hit me like a tsunami! Just like I told my therapist, I've always felt this strong connection with her from the very beginning, like maybe I knew her from a past life or something. I don't know what it is about Nikki--it just is. Maybe it really was just a simple 'friendly' goodbye kiss. Or was it a 'Hey, I think you're really cute goodbye kiss?' Perhaps hinting that she wanted something more than just a friendship. So here I go again, trying to analyze every nuance of that kiss-- from top to bottom. Boy, did it have some effect on me! It sent my mind pondering about it for hours and hours afterwards. So what was that enigma of a kiss? I was so damn turned from it that I actually rushed into my house and fell right onto my couch and quickly pulled my gym shorts down and fiercely started to touch myself. My mind soon transported me from my living room couch right into a fantasy where I had imagined Nikki and I making mad, passionate love together in the steam room of our gym! Oh, all the things I dreamed we were doing to each other in that hot, steamy room! Lying half naked on top of one another, writhing wildly against each other's wet, silky bodies. We were indeed testing the strength of those warm wooden benches beneath us, rocking them so hard and fierce with all of our uncontrolled passions!