What If ?

About the Book

At the beginning of the change of life, I came to realize I had major issues that regular meetings could help me with, How ever a dear friend once told me to write down how I felt And burn it all away, And so I did, and one bay I left one and it was found by a friend And they were amazed with what I wrote. You see I was writing about how I felt inside, The things the you don't say out loud, I was advised to put it up in the local homeless centre For people to read. I was there One day when I heard different people read and say all different things about what I was saying, one once said, it was like reading our inner thoughts. From them it carried on and I was asked to help write and publish a self help magazine for homeless people by the Homeless. But the unique thing of all this writing is that the more I wrote the more frequent the words would come to me, Some times from Nowhere.

About the Author

I am a person who grew up in a broken family situation, father left at an early age, leaving me to look after my family of three, mum, gran, and a younger brother. So I grew up very angry and confused, became a child carer, and lost my childhood, so was very different person to all my friends, and I found it very hard to deal with real life and normal situations, was also taken advantage of by people who feed on my naiveties and lack of understanding of what was normal and not normal, real or unreal, was told by a social worker if you cannot talk about my troubles and issues, it was ok to but them away in boxes and open them when I was ready, so these boxes built up over the years. I also found things to help me deal with things, in drugs and drink, and hanging with socially unacceptable people, who helped me to survive life traumas, then one day 10 years ago I was found by people who had leaved the same life I had and helped me to release I am an Addict, suffering form Addiction, they try to help me clean up but they could only do so much, and I was advised to get professional help in counseling and Rehabilitation, it was then I started to write down how I felt, but I burnt a lot of my work, but then I stopped after some was found by my friends, and advised to share with others to help people so I did and hear I am.