But listen cause I'm only gone say this once when I went to the streets I was fascinated by the hustlers pimps and drug dealers with money power and muscle that people feared cause they saw someone not to be disrespected on Conrad level X-felone level and special education learning level. The street life I wanted to be gangster and thug and loved the fact of the lawlessness lack of discipline and structure plus I could do whatever I wanted and felt powerful. I grew up marvel comic book fan to hide my shy behavior to fantasize about alter ego of me with super powers. But at home I didn't feel powerful, I went to the streets, moreover because I didn't feel my own power or control at home. Amen father and mother in loving memory to having deal with my talents ego tripping masking my behavior with super heroes birth-right. Humbly my sister's knew I was menace to society hard head knuckle head what my father still calls me or cuccle bug cause I didn't like to comb my hair their is lots more about my behavior listen let me explain my family legacy.