Born and raised in Toledo, OH the youngest of eight children. I was a "PK" (a Preachers Kid). My dad was a pastor, my friend and a great provider. My mother was a great musician; she was also my heart, and my rock.
He and my mother were together 32 years before he passed away. 32 years of your life married to the same person. But even as a child I knew that there was something that they lacked that would be beneficial for a good relationship.
Love of course. Yes, they loved each other but there was something that was missing.
You see even as a child I never seen my parents kiss nor even show affection for one another. 32years no affection, and no kissing.
I would play with my parents on our way to church and say innocently "Dad, kiss momma." After refusing my rants they finally would do it to shut me up.
It was fun but reality is after 32years there should never be any hesitation to kiss or even embrace the one you say you love, unless there is something much deeper.
So after years of trying to figure out why my own relationships sucked I had to do a self evaluation.
And this is what I learned. My relationships sucked because of me. You only get one life to live, and it's best not to screw this one up.